Closer than home

You are widely known but rarely a starter
Often a disappointment, pleasure to some
Always chasing one and then the other
Only a few came up to seek, numbed

Crushing hearts like it's your forte
With depression being a side dish
Slowly, memories are being taken away
Surely, it's like a granted birthday wish

Time flies even when you're not having fun
Sadly, it's true that you only live once
We belong and shall return to him, like clay dun
Death is inevitable, continues to hunt

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A decade

It feels like ten years ago again

Meeting new people

Old songs

..waiting for a reply yet again

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Distracted

The distraction has once again landed upon this person over here who's typing this....
Haha. I can be so good at this that I think if there is such job, I would be excel in it.
This laptop at work somehow makes me miss of my old laptop. The keyboard is just nice to type on because it's not flat like the new ones are and it makes clicking sound..I just love it. You know sometimes old stuff are just precious and good enough...meanwhile new creations may have more benefits and improvements but it just changes the whole feel. Old is gold. Go figure.

It's almost October and my 2017 has been unpredictable all along. Many incidents happened throughout as from what I observed. I taught myself to be more brave and to deal with my inner sensibilities well. Lots of questions running on my mind every single day, I can tell you, it's not easy being close to me. I'll keep asking them about my wonders and curiosities. I thank everyone for dealing with my inconsistent thoughts and feelings but my most gratitude goes to the almighty, for being there when I'm down or at my happiest, showing me signs and sending me people to assist me when I'm in need.

I met quite a number of new people this year and I'm privileged to have them by my side..
We barely know one another for a year but it feels like we've known for years. I hope that the friendship we have now will be an everlasting one. A shoutout to my other friends as well, may we continue to embrace the friendship that we have now, although some of y'all have found your other halves :)

Marry that girl, marry her anyway.. - Rude by Magic

This song is playing on Youtube as I'm typing this.. Haha.

Well, how's my love life? I'm still single and puzzled?
I have my eyes on someone but I'm not sure if he has the same feelings as me..I tried to talk to him at some point but the frequency's just not there. I gave him space and when he did approach me, I'm like a goner. I just gave him short replies peculiar to what he did previously to me. I even asked my mates about their thoughts on this? Majority advised me to take it slow and to make the first move while the others just told me to move on....I believe in this term soul mate, if he's the one..I'm sure God will make the both of us cross paths again :) I just need to tell myself to be patient and not rush things. Good things will happen pretty soon, I'm sure.

Alright, I shall continue to update on my life soon. One more hour to le maison.

Ciao!

-N

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Like a bird

You're beautiful and that's for sure

You'll never ever fade

Your lovely, but it's not for sure

And I won't ever change

And though my love is rare

And though my love is true

- Nelly Furtado, I'm Like A Bird

Every single day... it seems crazy but I think of you.

Take it slow, they said.

One day, I'll get to talk to you again..

Just like how we were before

We both know about my feelings for you.

Waiting for yours that I've yet to know

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Recent thoughts

Back again at this chapter

Thinking about it each day

Questions that make me ponder

Constantly ever since May

Am I doing this right?

I asked myself

Like a rope with frays

Why am I in this situation?

Uncertain, clueless

Of what future brings

I'm not afraid

Just being cautious

Is there a cost for being happy?

Am I not entitled to my own happiness?

I am human

I have feelings too

Does status matter?

 Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder

If you think you're better

Well, think again

Life can be simple

Oh come on, people

Mind your own business

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Floating By The Sea

For countless of times

Everything seems static

Deranged thoughts creeping like hymns

This is it

Never planned to terminate

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Eyes closing tired stress over thinking find ways course do clueless might not be real check mark yapping away non-stop raining motor cycle sleep business art time ticking

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Thank You

You guided me to the place

We were a team back then

Shared a conversation during the race

In an instant I found a friend

Talked about love in a daze

Memories stay but times will end

Photos becomes proof to those days

Not my intention to let this out of hand

Happiness is what I feel always

Not having a clue to what this life meant

Sometimes confused like being in a maze

Having you people makes my life fun

Super creative and never failed to amaze

Constant deadlines are always on the run

Went through together despite our laze

Six months was short but I gained a ton

Wisdom and thoughts amongst inspiring ways

That life is beyond of what we honed

Like how both elements and colours are laced

Meaning and context remains in the zone

Feelings and thoughts are not to be erased

Just like how journals were meant to be done

Not my intention to break what has been promised

I admit that I have to take this risk alone

Knowledge that were shared will be missed

All the intense laughter that tickled my bone

One thing for sure it was a good wheeze

I definitely enjoyed the times that I shone

Learning is like a life long journey lease

You can always find me on the phone

I'm out of here enough of this tease

Thank you for the opportunity and loan

I'm returning back to where I'm at ease

 

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Gallery

Jakarta, 2015

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Different kinds

I see there are two types of people
In this world
Who's willing to go the extra mile for you
The other one just don't make an effort
One can be frank
While the latter just lies
Filtered words with no further conversation
Filthy words and it works
With sincerity
Or just a chore
No one knows
How their game works
I'm just here
Being real as possible
Not for fame
Neither looking for benefits
Who needs a friend
When all of you people behave
Like a bunch of dimwits

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Let the cat out of the bag

Trust issues: Self-reminder

Refrain

Cactus is green

It is sharp

Why you so mean

Shut the fuck up

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Awhile ago

I'm on my way to school and the bus that I was waiting for eventually left without even stopping. Bloody hell..

Anyway, I had conversation with le mum earlier and somehow it goes like this..

Moi: Mum, what if I were to be with someone younger..is it okay?

Mum: Nothing wrong with that, as long as he knows how to guide you..does he know how to pray?

Moi: Haha.. I'm just getting to know him..

Mum: Is he still schooling?

Moi: Yeah..he is.

Mum: It doesn't matter..just look at Aunty Jei, her husband is 6 years younger and she's the one who matchmaked your dad with me

LOL

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The Right One

I've been searching up and down
One who can fix this broken heart
It's neither about wealth or crown
Grant me my precious honey tart

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Starting All Over

It's been a while since I did blogging and here I am in Blogger again after Sab managed to influence me..haha.

We'll see how it goes..assignments are killing me.

So much memories in Blogger..my oh so teenage life.

Be right back.

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